dr. steinkirch's q && a

• What are your current goals?

  I have three main focuses right now:
  
  1️⃣ Join a nice team for some cool and cutting-edge work,
  2️⃣ Make a nice and safe house my home,
  3️⃣ Find and fall in love with my soulmate (i.e., the person I will marry, spend the rest of my life with, and build a family with).
  
  Everything I do is toward these three goals.

• Why have you moved so many times?

  During the first part of my life, I used to have this great desire to explore the world and experience all cultures, so I would take any chance to travel that I could.
  
  In the last decade, because my work as an engineer pays reasonably well and has allowed me to work remotely, I have been kind of a nomad. I have had several beautiful houses in many places, but I tended to stay no longer than 1-3 years in each of them, and at some moments I was fully nomadic (homeless), staying in beautiful Airbnbs or hotels around the world. I have been to 30+ countries, have lived in dozens of cities, and have visited almost every state in the USA.
  
  I am very grateful to G'd for being able to achieve this exploratory dream (and I have so much material for my stories!), but at this new moment in my life I am very ready to settle down and build a safe and stable home.

• What does your day-to-day life look like?

  I love routines and my life is heavily focused on my work and goals:
  
  My mornings always tend to be the same: wake up, shower, do yoga and a headstand, check the news and play some chess, have coffee, and start working (which is what I do most of the day).
  
  In my evenings, I usually go for a walk or do some gym workout, do some meditation, and do something fun such as playing videogame or VR, reading a book, or watching a movie. This is also the other time of the day when I (quickly) check the news and messages. Once I move to my new home, I plan to add playing music, dancing, cooking, and shooting to my weekly routine. I will also probably get some cute pets to keep me company.
  
  On the weekends, I like to explore new places, do outdoor sports, and work on my writings - and once on my new home, I hope I will have good friends I can hang out with.

• Why are you not married or a mom?

  Good question, I wonder about it myself. Basically, I never really met anyone I wanted to spend my life with.
  
  In the first part of my life, I dated and loved several amazing guys, but I was too focused on my own agenda. I didn't really want to get married before my 30s and I had little desire to become a mother at that time.
  
  Then, in my 30s, when I started to mature and think about these things, because I'm an introvert and was traveling a lot, it was just hard to meet someone nice. The type of partner I am interested in is very intellectual (and probably introvert like me), but since I have a personal rule of not using dating apps nor dating at work, it's not a trivial problem.
  
  Finally, in the last few years, a huge crime happened in my life, resulting in a certain ostracism and a certain religious hermitism, and leading me being celibate for the past couple of years. I am still recovering from what happened to me, so I am taking things slowly on this front.
  
  During 2026, I am first focusing on making sure I am happy at work and at home, and then I am sure G'd will send me the one.

• What's the deal with communicating through numbers?

  Well, the original explanation is that I'm autistic and my brain is highly analytical (after all, I've spent around 4/5 of my life extremely focused on theoretical physics or software engineering). Therefore, I have a very peculiar way of thinking about reality and expressing my thoughts that is heavily focused on pattern recognition. I think in terms of numbers (and their relationships, such as group associations or Boolean logic rules) quite frequently — they are my main natural language.
  
  Then, in recent years, as I've been working on my projects (both technical and humanistic), people started to notice that I tend to embed certain numerical rules and symmetries into almost everything I do. Some of my online followers learned these rules and started applying them as well, so we ended up creating a collective natural language based on numerical expression. An entire culture has emerged on top of this game, and you can even draw direct correlations to how Tarot (i.e., the Kabbalah) is structured.
  
  I'm not going to reveal how our code can be translated, but here are some hints:
  
  ➡️ 2, 4, 6, and 10 tend to be “soft” communication (each with its own particular meaning)
  ➡️ 5 tends to be on the side of alerting (or, depending on the context, chaos!)
  ➡️ 1 and 8 are related to each other in some sense (can you figure out how?)
  ➡️ 3, 7, and 9 are more mysterious... (and fun?)
  
  Enjoy playing with us!

• Have you ever streamed your life or published any sexual content?

  Absolutely not. However, because of people’s reactions over the past few years, I know there must be hacked content of me on the internet.
  
  I started being bullied (and hacked) in 2022, so I believe the crime must have started around that time. That was when I began dating my last partner, who was highly abusive, manipulative, and possessive. I am firmly convinced that he is involved.
  
  I first realized I had been hacked on November 22, 2024, after seeing the "unhinged" reactions on X and noticing that many contacts had blocked me. I still don’t know what happened that day. All I know is that I was in a hotel in Seattle and felt very tired all day after a tattoo removal session that morning. I spent the entire following year trying to find out what happened. I attempted to contact many people, but no one ever responded. I also began being recognized and bullied in public, which makes me believe whatever happened went viral.
  
  Unfortunately, no one has ever spoken to me directly about it, and the people I still have contact with are unaware of anything — probably because whatever happened circulated only within certain circles. I still don’t know what was filmed, how it was filmed, whether I was impersonated, who did it, whether they profited from this abuse, what narrative was created to prevent people from speaking openly, whether the criminals are in jail, or what exactly is circulating about me online.
  
  Because I spent years without knowing what happened — and I still have never seen any of the content — I was unable to pursue formal legal action. For a long time, I believed the law was being enforced without the victim's direct involvement. We are now working on prosecuting those responsible, and they will be held accountable, no matter how long it takes. I continue to fight every day, and I will never give up on bringing the justice I deserve into my life after so much pain.
  
  2025 was an extremely difficult year for me. I have never experienced that level of stress, especially while being bullied so openly. I became very depressed during the holidays but was able to recover. My recovery came from the decision that I needed to move forward with my life and could no longer wait for someone else to step in and help me.
  
  I am grateful to G’d for protecting me — it could have been much worse — and for allowing me to grow through this experience. In many ways, I have never felt as whole and strong as I do now.